A letter from Apr 13, 2025

Dear FutureMe, This letter is long overdue. Happy new year :D 2025 has been insane so far. First things first, we did graduate!! We are computer scientists somehow (I have major imposter syndrome, and it's a long story). We finished out internship in 2024, but we didn't get the job (our old department was dissolved cause of the CEO). But we got a job elsewhere right after!! To answer your 2024 questions: 1. Dad has had some relapses, and right now, we are not feeling anything anymore. We have become completely numb, and acted on impulse regarding some things (you know what). Even after it passed, I still don't feel guilt, or anything else. I think it is related to this. I don't trust him, and I'm starting to not trust her as well. I don't trust anyone anymore. But one your sisters got into a doctrate program! We are waiting for any updates on her visa renewal. And the other one finally got that job, thanks to you!! We are so excited and happy for them. I love them. 2. Uni is officially regionally accredited (YAYY), but I graduated before that >.< I don't think the leadership likes me cause I kept bugging them, but hey, at least we got what we needed. I didn't start my Master's yet, I don't have enough money, but it's still part of the plan. Fingers crossed! 3. I didn't get any scholarship, and I'm still "home". I'm starting to adjust to idea of being here, but I don't know, the numbness makes it hard to have any ambitions. 4. Dolly is still with us, albeit old and blind. But she is still the cutest. I hope by next year, she's still here T.T 5. I don't have a boyfriend yet. And while I do love you, I just don't know what to do with my life. 6. Church is fine, I've made a lot of friends. I'm in worship and devotionals. Life is going, I'm just on autopilot, you know? 7. Our 22nd birthday started out rocky, but it was a blast by the beach! Thank you, Mom <3 For our 23rd soon, I'm planning a beach picnic with the gals. Hopefully it doesn't rain, but if it does, we got karaoke set! Some other updates and questions ahead for 2026 me: 1. We are so tired of this new job already. I do not recommed doing a job in a field you are not passionate about. I'll try for biomed again, but I'm so depressed, I'm scared I'll flunk every entrance exam. 2. I had no expectations for 2025, and I found the one-who-shall-not-be-named's instagram, and I think I dug a deeper hole for my numbness. 3. Speaking of which, I started counseling with the mom of a cute guy. Future me, did anything happen out of this? Was his mom a good counselor? Did you tell her everything? Did he ever make the first (or second cause I'm always first) move? Anyway, what's life like in 2026. I want to know everything, but I'm a little scared this time. I love you always <3