A letter from Apr 08, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Dear FutureMe, Hey .. I am here after a long time.. Didn't think I would even be alive to write this but here we are.. It is our birthday in 2 days and life took a different turn.. you are in a nursing student..we are almost done with our clinicals of 1st year and guess what?? In the third last week , I saw someone and I kinda liked him .. I kept seeing him around and one day in ward I just asked him if he would take the blood sample of the patient and he said he would but the attendant said that I want you to take it and not him and this whole thing happened and then you saw him around 2-3 times till one day you got into the bus and sat besides him.. yeah it was me who started talking . I said please sit comfortably and he said he is and he said the same to me... Then it was quite all way till we were about to reach and he asked me what I do here and everything and we talked for almost 2 minutes and in these two minutes he got to know everything about me , he even joked saying that oh so you are my age , to which I said yeah and later we discovered that I am year younger ... Then we get off at the hospital and walked towards the door together and something in the way he acknowledged my words , listened to me , answered me made me go crazy .. like obsessed and since then I like him so much then I saw him around again and after a week , I saw him again and he came to my ward , he smiled subtly and I greeted with Hi... He said hiii too and I asked how he is doing .. that's it ... Then he came after me and went somewhere and I also went to work .. and I saw him continuously in my ward for 2 days.. he used to come and just smile and then leave .. then last Saturday he didn't come or may be he came and I didn't see him because there were lot of patients around .. it is Tuesday and I haven't seen him since ... I wandered around every corner of the hospital but couldn't find him... Now the possibility that his internship might be over but nah because he told me he is there for 3 months so I don't understand where is he.. Yeah I am getting ahead of myself and I already like him a lot but still I want to see him again , like even it is just for once.. I want to tell him that how I searched for him everywhere and how this is my last week here .. life is too short to regret anyways .. I just want to see him .. I just want to be with him , yeah this is too early for me to say this but I can't explain how he made me feel in those 2 minutes and how I feel around him.. he is shy and cute and I just like him .. Still 4 days to go till my last day , I hope I get to see him and I hope to start things with him.. I hope everything goes as I want it to be.. I never thought I would say this for anyone but I want it to be him.. I am already anxious and DISAPPOINTED if I won't see him again.. even in that situation, I guess I will be fine.. I should be fine.. and I need to be fine.. I hope things escalated after this and you are reading this together with him and even if you are not , please don't be sad , it's okay.. there is nothing more we could do about it ..