A letter from Apr 08, 2025

hi you, last year around september i think i got an an***ty attack because i'm overthink everything and it continue until today, i will get random symptomps, like racing heart rate, my heart sometimes like skipped a beat, short breath and i feel like i have to take a really deep breath, my vision sometime can gets blurry, i feel like i walk on a ship, and i really hate this but sometimes i just feel like i'm going to die by all of that symptomps or feeling that i felt, and i'm really scared by that and it will get much bad after that. i don't know what just happen exactly, i just realize it by now after my brain fog time is over and finally i get "sober" by it, this month, six months later. and i tell my mom and my second family, my community. and i'm scared to tell them. but i did. and it feel weird, like i feel relieved at some point but i also scared that they maybe don't really care and what i say is just someother chitty chatty thing and that they will not thinking about it in like 2 days. but it's okay. see you in six months and we'll see how things going for me. i hope that i'll get better and stable. xoxo