A letter from Apr 07, 2025

Dear FutureMe, It's the 7th April 2025 and it 3.44am he's been out to "watch the football" and you've woken up to see if you've had a text from him. You haven't. You feel hurt but you really don't know why you feel that way. You kicked him out the 14th January and all he's done is drink and not show up for your daughter. At least you are not with him and you have chosen you for the 1st time in your life. It's scary being in your own and you know he has put you off mental for ever although all you want is to feel that kind of love that someone REALLY ***** loves you and appreciates you. I hope when U receive this you have found that person as craig did not give a **** about you choosing drink and drugs and going out every Friday your anxiety was through the roof whilst U was in work Fridays knowing he won't be home till 5am which became the norm and if he was ever bored he'd just jump up and go the pub whilst I was sat there doing nothing. But I'm trusting the process I hope it gets easier being alone because all I feel at the moment is ***** sad 😢. Yanno I look at Craig and I really don't fancy him anymore so why the frik do I feel so sad that we're not together. He messages all the time telling me what he's up to, he never did that when he was with you EVER and you still don't believe he's doing what he says he's doing. You keep checking his last o line on what's app and notice he's always online offline so you think he's messaging someone cuz who else is up at 3am messaging. I don't know how to stop this ****** feelings and I don't want to get with someone else so soon to feel security but I'm scared f or when he meets someone FFS. Anyway Tammi I hope you're a finally happy and potentially have the love of your life or even better actually be sooooo happy being on your own. I love you. Lots of love Tammi ❤️