A letter from Mar 27, 2025

To my beloved, Hei :) I hope you are alive and well. I hope you breathe and smile and laugh and still fight for what you believe in, a safer world for all. I hope you are reading this and life got better. To my beloved fragile, hurt and crushed past self, maybe it was or it wasn't too much in the end. The last years were hard and full of experiences that made life more of a burden of survival rather than living. Truth to be told, it was a pain in the ***, and not many people knew about it, or even if they knew, how could they change anything? Everyone's destiny is in their own hands, and sometimes life it's just not fair at all, or kind, sometimes it is just chaotic and evil and dark. But you know how they say ,,to become spring, means accepting the risk of winter''. I hope you read this, and remind everyone in your life how fragile and precious life is, how grateful you are to be alive and have them in your life. I hope you read this and truly follow your dream to change the world step by step and make it safer for everyone. I hope you read this and ugly cry. I hope you read this and drink a matcha and eat some baked sweet homemade. I hope you will read this, but if you dont I forgive you. You have endured a lot, little child, and if you choose the way out to the heavens I will forgive you. There will be no one in this world who would understood why you did it, but I would and I would forgive you and that will be enough. I am forgiving you for thinking about suicide, because sometimes ,,to become presence, means accepting the risk of absence.” Live, not just survive, you deserve that. And if you're reading this, I am so proud of you little one. Go live and love and change the world, the world is ours to cherish. Your kindest, self and future angel.