A letter from Nov 2024

Dear FutureMe, how are you? No like genuinely how is your mental health at rn? I’m currently feeling pretty ok about everything, only stressing a ton about school cuz I got pneumonia for 2 painful and scary weeks. And it was horrible, I had a fever high of 40.1 degrees, a constant, bad cough that made my abdomen ache, sore throat, and dizziness pretty much throughout. Anyways, I’m about to go on a family vacation trip to the Philippines and it’s going to be a first since I’ve never once been. It’s coming up in the next two weeks. And I’m really excited for how it might be, the hot weather, warm beaches, new people. I’m going to miss a lot of schoolwork though and I’m kinda worried about that and how I’m going to make up for it. Nevertheless, still really looking forward to it. Also, at the moment crushing on nobody 🥲. Sort of looking for a relationship but it’s iffy. Kinda just something to look forward to when I do get one, but not eager enough to seek one out, yk? Just going through life rn. I think it’s still a pretty good place to be. Oh yeah, I just started this workout routine for arms, legs, and stretching. Have you kept up with that? On week one currently with a max of 20 push-ups, 10 pull ups, 7 chin ups, 7 leg raises, wall sit for 1min30s, plank for 45s, and 11 pistol squats. What’s your max now? Currently I’m also trying to better myself. Like, I’m doing lifeguarding training(at bronze cross rn), trying out cleaning/washing my face, reading up French and Norwegian books, learning about charisma and going out of my comfort zone. I’m my friendships, particularly, the Close Group’s I think I’m doing a solid effort in talking my mind more and not being scared. I’m pretty proud of myself. Also, my standards have changed. I realized that I took a lot of other peoples icks and standards as my own, but didn’t really think of what I think is attractive. Right now at least, I can absolutely say that I personally know what I think is attractive in people. Namely, confidence, like being adventurous and ready to do something that could be embarrassing, being smart, because I want someone i can have intelligent, meaningful conversations with. I also don’t put as much value in a persons height as others do. My only ask is that I’m taller than her by a little or lot, it doesn’t matter, just that I’m taller. Also playing valorant rn currently at bronze 1 rank and started aim train routine. What are you at now? Who do you main? I main brimstone and breach mostly because of how easy their kits are to use. What was a game changer that changed how you played the game? Anyways tell me about that kindness of stuff. Sincerely, Ryson of Nov. 2024