A letter from Mar 19, 2025

Dear FutureMe, 💐🌸🦩🍡🍥 Hello, KJ. There are so many things that I wanted to say but my mind keeps telling me to keep them but my heart just couldn't. I've been planning all this time to let you know but it takes hard just thinking what consequences I might face because of my actions. I want to be straightforward to you—I like you. I don't know when did I saw you in a different light but I just developed feelings for you. I know it's wrong because my best friend also likes you, and I regret it sometimes that to all of a thousand guys, why you? It was grade 9, you already caught my attention. But not like im interested on you, I just found you cute. I didn't know that you have gf that time also. And when we were on the 10th grade, months have passed and I've developed feelings for you but on the other hand, C already told me that she likes you. So I respect my best friends feelings and kept it on myself. But I just couldn't help it, I keep falling and falling for you even though how hard I tried to stop admiring you. I did everything but God keep bringing me back to you. And now, I've fallen deeper—and a feeling that I want to pursue you. I have a lot of crushes way back but this just feels too different. When it comes to you, I let my heart rules. I was thinking for the perfect time to tell you, but im concern about the people around us. And if you are reading this letter now, this is the time that I gathered all my courage to confess to you. Im not expecting a return from you. I just want to express what I really felt to let my heart and mind breathe. For sure, expect me to feel a little bit of pain if you will reject me but it's okay—I also respect whatever your decision is. After you read this confession letter, I just want to say that I hope how we interact with each other will never change. I hope that the friendship and closeness we had will stay the same. Forget everything I've said and act like just nothing happened, that you didn't read this confession. Yes, you told me you're not ready yet to enter a relationship, so am I. We're both the same. I liked you, but that doesn't mean that I want to be in a relationship with you. The right time will come for the both of us, if we're really meant to be, if this fate is really for us. Let's get to know each other more. But if ever or maybe, our feelings are mutual; let's see how this thing goes. And I am not rushing things too, I know you're still healing yourself from everything that happened especially on your past relationship. Let's both cleanse our mind and heart together. And always remember that you are worth it, and the best! xoxo, peyt 🌷🍥🍡💗 ʚɞ