A letter from Mar 17, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hoy es tu cumpleaños. O bueno ayer. Pero eso que más da? Lo que hayas sido no importa, lo único que importa es el ahora. Todo va a estar bien. Quiero que pauses un momento y que me digas, en este momento eterno que es lo importante para ti. A donde quieres ir. Las otras personas no importan, sus sentimientos no importan, las reglas no importan. Lo único que importa es lo que yo realmente quiero. Yo no tengo que darle ninguna explicación a nadie, ni tengo que prostituirme ni estar con alguien que he conocido en una pagina online solo porque mi profesora de francés sea una mierda de persona y me haga bullying por eso. No sé porqué está haciendo eso. Es discusting. Me da igual su guerra, me da igual su vida. Ellos en general me dan igual. Que aprendan a defenderse. Si tuvieran una vida no estarían pendiente de la mía. O fue coincidencia lo del examen? A saber. Follow your heart and your intuition. Munia I want the truth. These people have a very low vibration, they do not want to raise it, they are tired, they just want to bring down others. Do not listen to other people if you know that they are not right. You know which is the way, you know which is the correct next step. He only have got interested on me when I mentioned that we had terrenos en Marruecos. Anyways I do not feel attracted to him. A man who wants money from a woman is not attractive at all. And I could feel that he didn't want to help me with it or share both of us together, he wanted to take it for himself, I could feel el vacío en mi pecho, la falta de amor en su voz cuando hablábamos de dinero, y además I could feel cómo se ponía violenta su voz cuando se trataba de terrenos o viviendas. No sé si todos los alemanes que se casan con españolas o latinas son así, pero este realmente es un psicópata. Y mi profesora de francés su profesora de psicopatía, forzar a una alumna e inmigrante a casarse o estar con alguien que no quiere y que sabe que es malo para ella... Hay que tener el corazón negro de odio y envidia, o eso o simple estupidez. En cualquiera de los dos casos, not worth fighting for. You cannot change anyone, only yourself. Así que ahí se queda, por tonta. write, write exactly whats in your mind. Should have I stayed in China? Yes. You did a mistake coming back. If Omar was bullying you you should have stayed there. That is not Morocco, that is not his country. That is shanghai, China. Therefore the Chinese have more power than him on there, therefore you should not have faked being crazy and ran away. That was a mistake. You were very well connected, you had great business man and woman on your back helping you, you had people cooking for you, cleaning for you and rooting for you. It was your fear of being beaten that made you run away. In Morocco girls could be beaten in the streets or touch without their permission if they say something bad to guys or simply if they are more intelligent or get better grades or more beautiful or better at business and making great work networks. So you ran away but you didn't had to. In China there are policeman, and law and they are feminists, therefore he should not be able to to that. So today, at my birthday of 28 years old, still not married because a kid of 25 who thinks he is a man bullied me to the point to which i had to fake being crazy so that i could escape his maltrato. And the worst of all is that the girls in the dorm helped him to do it, they were happy that they will patearme todos juntos. He acted as if he was taking care of me but he was controlling me. He was stopping my growth, and everything was halal for him and haram for me. I did not like it, I didn't want to do anything haram or halal, I just wanted to go out and go to disneyland and to see the city and be happy. Nada mas. But he liked the fact that I was depressed. So he have got sure that I didn't leave that state. He used me to be more popular and to gain more friends and comercial allies. Anyways this is what I think and it is private, I didn't tell anyone, so no one should answer. This is my own business, they should not get between husband and wife, we say in Morocco that only dirt gets between the nail and the flesh. They really thought they could stop my growth. Well, they can't. It is impossible. No es posible porque estoy en el frente. I am leading. How can someone who is in the last line of my army stop my growth? This person should first come to the first row, run very fast to catch me, and once this person have reached me, then this person can pass me or overperform me. But they can't because they don't have the keys of the doors that they wish to open. And me myself have thrown them *just in case* someone tries to steal them. I am very intelligent, all of my success is not a coincidence. It was not luck, it was me being me. Te escucho mi amor, dime. My mum tried to get those keys for her people because they were stuck. Well, they are stuck because they did not do the job they had to do to open the door by themselves. So they should stay stuck, that is what they deserve. What's your heart telling you? Which is your intuition telling you, I hear you honey... Tell me... what is the correct next step? Te escucho. Do some meditation and get yourself together. Jma3 rassek. Tell me exactly what is in your heart. Tell me... what is the correct next step? You want to say something? Follow your heart. You should have stayed in China. You did a stupid move. Next time don't sacrifice so that ****** man can live happily and in peace. He was acting as feminist but he was ******. He is just making a show. So that he can get an upgrade in job. Go back and tell him: **** off. If he tries to get close to you tell him **** off. Don't go back to that ship. Leave all together. He doesn't deserve you. Tu eres mucha mujer para él. He tried with all its might to bring you down, he thought you had a lot of self confidence for being a woman, only a *man* (who could not even sleep with me without any guarantees, like I wasn't asking for money, a house or even a compromise, just a night, and he still couldn't) could do business and those things. He wanted to hide me at home AND without *** while I am already 28 years old... At that time he was 27... It was a CATASTROPHE. Are all men in Morocco ***? Who knows? I will not go so that they will torture me for liking to have ***... Casi me mata de la depresión. Lo peor que había americanos, franceses y gente de todos los países pero no me dejaba irme con nadie y tampoco me satisfacía... Qué le vamos a hacer? Como no le iba a gustar yo? Debe de ser ***... Porque solo atraigo hombres ****? Debe de haber algo malo conmigo... O sea que trauma hace que atraiga hombres ****? Que problema tengo con la masculinidad? Tengo que leerme el libro este de Lewis Howes sobre masculinidad... Cómo lo arreglamos? Deberías ir a la psicóloga... De verdad tienes que ir al psiquiatra no a la psicóloga, porque acabar siempre con **** no es normal. There is something wrong with me. Bueno niña llevas dos días escribiéndote una carta. Sigue siendo tu y sigue pensando en ti misma siempre, siempre sin excepción. keep fighting... Toma decisiones. Which is the correct next decision or step? Get in touch with the people that can help you. 1. What do I really want? Why do I want it? I am a soul having a human experience. Who is angry at me and why? What is stopping you? and what is the correct next step? What is your intuition telling you? What is the correct next step? Do you think your life would have been happy if you had married someone like Omar? Maybe yes. Maybe. Where should I go next? What is happening? and what is your intuition telling you? Que tengo que intentar llevarme bien con esta gente aunque no me gusten. Hacer un mínimo esfuerzo. Y después? Get used to work and to having money. Let go. That is my sincere advice. Let go. Don't get attached to it. Let go. Let go and it will come back to you. Let go. What is the correct next step? Go to sleep. That is the correct next step. What would you tell the Munia of 29 years old? Where would you wish she is? The Munia of 29 years old is fulfilled, the Munia has made the moves up, one huge step up. She is not scared of anyone or anything. And she not only moved up, she also left behind everyone who is stopping her growth. Guerra de guerrillas. Mañana a las 4 de la mañana arriba que hay muchas cosas por hacer. No te olvides de vivir. Why they are going for you so bad? Porque estas haciendo mucho daño. Sino no pondrían tanto esfuerzo in taking you down.