A letter from Mar 16, 2025

Dear FutureMe, It's been a couple of weeks since I received my 21st birthday FutureMe letter. I've been thinking abt answering it for a little while now, but I'm not sure what to talk about. I'll start with answering all the questions from September 2024. "It feels weird to think I'm not a teenager anymore. Have you gotten used to it yet?" I'm not sure? For example, I still feel like those 'teenage girls' posts apply to me, but I don't feel 17, 18 or 19 - if asked about my age, I wouldn't hesitate to say 21 (or 20). I'm fully aware that technically I'm not a teenager anymore, but sometimes I think that people should still treat me as one. " I'm considering quitting PB" Well - I did. It's great! Me and Natalia quit mid December, flew to Poland, visited grandparents, rented a house and spent Christmas with Mom, Dad, Parabs and siblings! Then we took January off. I found a job at Taozi. Im curious how you'll feel about it by the time you receive this letter? right now, I feel disproportionately stressed out by it, but objectively it's very nice! I get to learn, it's calm, rather previsible, mornings are repetitive which is calming, I have a good grasp of the couple of things i get asked to do (fruit, cakes...). "I bought new glasses recently, [...] Did you like them?" Yep! I don't remember my first impression, but they're like a part of my makeup now. "I'm hoping to stay in contact with Cedric" Listen, he wrote! For my birthday!! three days late, but still. There's better and worse moments, but I'm trying to keep our conversations fun. He said he only stayed in contact with me and William! People "he appreciates and is interested in ;)"!!! The winky is a direct quote. So I hope you're doing a good job staying in contact! I'm sort of cowardly thinking about meeting up with him before moving out of Paris. Did i try? Did it work out? It's ok if i chickened out, don't beat yourself up. In September, i was wondering where I'd go after school. You're more likely to know the answer, so I shall pass that question forward . Right now, the most likely seems moving to the south of France. I was saving up for Mavuika - I got her! !Now, I'm hopelessly wishing on furina. Turns out she'd be very useful in my teams, and I like her! But it's not guaranteed and there's not that many days left of her banner. I was excited about Tiny Glade. It wasn't released yet at the time. It is wonderful indeed, but like all creative things, it requires work and creativity, both of which i can scrounge up very very rarely. Yes indeed, as I thought in September, now the CCFs are all terribly close. But much more daunting is the end of pastry school, the end of this whole chapter. It's all over in three months. There's nothing to do but to prepare, so even though I've been in a hellish depressive slump since mid february, I'm making some vague attempts. Did a couple BAC blancs at home. Today, I made it in 5h, chocolate not included ( so email and dipping batons marechaux). I have not been studying enough. I did turn in dossier pro and chef d'oeuvre. It's crazy to think it's done! complete! printed, laminated, bound and turned in..... "How are you feeling? Who did you spend our birthday with? Do you like your workplace, whether it's the same one or not? How did Christmas go? Do you have a crush? I'm head over heels for Cedric, but I'm crushing hard on Bonheur. I hope he doesn't quit, I like him. Or if it's me who quits, I hope I tell him beforehand. What gifts did you get? What did you give? And for Christmas?" In order: feelin' depressed. With just Natalia, but I called grandparents, she called mom, then Hiszpan called us and told us all the Jarzyna gossip of the last year. It was wonderful to be remembered! Well, Ive said all abt my new workplace. And christmas. Still love Cedric. I was too much of a coward to tell Bonheur before I quit. I got two Ferrandi books, Fruit and Chocolate, from mom, and a new Xbox controller (that I finished Horizon Zero Dawn with!) and a Flower Knows palette from Natalia, and tea, coffee, chocolate and a lego flower set from Hubert (the ex). I gave a microphone for Cameron calls and RP Perfume, Rouge Paris. For Christmas, I got a VR set from dad! Even though he said he couldn't! Me and Natalia didn't get each other gifts, since we paid for the flight, the house... From parabs, we got handmade tart beans. Shirts and earrings and scented soaps from grandparents. Can't remember what we got from mom.. It feels bad but I have strictly no idea?? I know someone gave us stationery, maybe it was her? Guliver gave us bracelets and a Hello Kitty plushie, which is a bit off mark but very sweet. The rest of the siblings gave us mostly handmade stuff. I got upset that i couldn't remember what mom gave me, started scrlling on my phone and now its 23h. i should be waking up at 5, at 6h at latest. This is what I mean by a depressive slump... I'm really sad. Its been a day and a bit since i last wrote, its a school morning now. I'll have to leave in a few minutes, so I'll finish it this afternoon maybe? yep so I'm back (me and Natalia got hit on by an adorable 17yo today, had to tell him we're a bit too old :c ). In six months, I have strictly no idea what I'll be up to. Where do you live? right now, I think I'll be living by the seaside working in a casual pastry shop. it's hard to imagine it happening though. I've gotten attached to this room and house, but I can't stand living with housemates any longer. Where do you work? If you work? I know that staying at Taozi is an option, but I'm honestly not convinced. I hope the new place is cool, you don't work a lot and get paid well. Is it just pastry or do you do something on the side? Videos or maybe learning a skill, like programming or 3d modelling or Lately, of course, I haven't been up to much. I hope you're enjoying some hobbies or are learning something or at least enjoying your day to day life. I've been struggling to enjoy anything lately, including video games, drawing, Vr games or beatsaber, learning stuff, editing the video that just... sits there, almost finished... I hope I moved past this quickly! what else... have you found any new friends? adopted a new cat? is Mia doing good? she's the cutest being in the whole world, i assume that hasn't changed. she's dedicated as ever to preventing any productivity from happening in her vicinity. (btw, flowers have been blooming everywhere since lika week or two ago - right now, I can see the tree in the neighbour's garden, whose highest branches are covered in pink flowers. ) Oh! I've got like 20 spreads left in my bujo, on the black paper; I wonder what (my? your?? our???) next bujo will look like. I hope the paper is good and you use it a lot. I've been truly exasperated with my recent eating habits. started drinking energy drinks, as if coffee wasn't bad enough, stocking up on unhealthy snacks (chocolate, chip, crackers) and impulse buying even worse nacks (kinder buenos). I hope you've been eating better. I know we really DO like healthy food, its jut such a pain to prepare... Oh, what are your favourite songs atm? Mine would be **** Somebody, Heart of Glass, Rest of the Best, 18, **** Show, Roaring 20s, Can't Let Go. There are soooooo many more, but I don't wanna rewrite half the playlit ( I currently listen to the "End of 2023 master playlist" on spotify, I wonder if you still listen to this one? Well then, I hope you're happy, and if not, holding on just like I am! Remember to reach out to the people you love, family, Cedric, friends... Bye! Ameyo, March 2025