A letter from Dec 17, 2024

Just finished watching Never Have I Ever for like the 6th time but you know what this time was very very different. I actually could relate to most of Devi's experiences. We bonded over getting waitlisted from our dream school and rejected to most of the schools we applied too. That episode had me in tears man. Its not like I wasnt already crying tho. UCSD rejecting me was my last ******* straw. Every time I got a rejection letter I would just thug it out but not this one. I felt this one deep in my soul. I cried and cried and cried. Eyes puffy, lashes long, makeup ruined and snot every where. I know that where ever we ended up tho is probably for the best. I hope we made the right choice. I hope you aren't as nervous and worried that everything you have worked for has been for nothing. Being first gen is not for the weak. **** imposter syndrome and remind yourself of the generational barriers you are breaking by attending a 4 year. I know its hard man but if dummies can do it so can you. #dontgiveup