A letter from Mar 14, 2025

Hello future me, i hope you've been but i know that you have not been okay cause you're never okay but you somehow get through things and that's a thing that I'm proud about you cause every time i think "this is it, this is how I'm gonna lose my mind, it'll never get better" but you prove me wrong, it does get better actually you get better, yes you do, i know you've always wanted a normal life normal family normal friends, everything ordinary not much special but also not traumatic experiences and i know how much you just want normal things and i also know how you never get them, how you don't get the only things you've wanted and even i don't know what to do about that but ill say maybe that's your kinda normal? that one voice in my mind is saying rn "but i don't want that normal, i want ordinary normal like others" and i don't have any answer to that do you? its okay if you don't. soo the things i just said idk how to end that conve so ill just leave it there and well how are you? did you find the people who ask you this question too? or the one that already exist in your life start asking you these questions? i hope they did, ik its not that they dont care its just theyre busy in their life, and i dont have a life so do you have a life? i think im just making you depressed by writing these questions instead of giving you a hope on your 18 birthday, soo the point is youre not a kid now and actually you never were, now youre 18 but even when you were 17 or 16 or 15 you were never a kid, you were always mature for your age and maybe that's a thing you like and hate about yourself, and thats okay so dont stress out youre legally an adult now, but you were always an adult even more mature than the adults that traumatised you, you weren't suppose to be but you are so cheers to that fact, and idk what you are doing now but i hope not blaming me for the things i should've done instead of completing newtopia btw rewatch, you would've forgot it by then anyways, forgive me and yourself and do you have a boyfriend? if no then yayyy!!! if yes then ughh... are your standards high?? how does he make you feel? are you happy with him? does he treat you right? if any of your ans have "but he has his reasons to.." please his reasons you do not have to suffer for his reasons please , be detached, umm is he still in your life?(yk who im talking bout) if yes then why?? i mean okay its your choice if you wanna keep him friend, and i desperately hope he's just your friend, and if he isn't in your life then good he was a good & bad experience. now it's your turn to EXPERIENCEEE NEW THINGSSS YAYY, soooooooooo do it, what about friends are you still friends with all of them? if yes then im really happy if no then it wouldve happened for a good reason ik it yk it, soo if not you have good friends?if not blahhh its okay to be a loner, i am and I'm cool with it but you're going to college better socialize there and make some new friends "the prob isn't socialising its ppl" ik darling😭its okayyy , ITS GONNA BE YOUR TURN SOOOON, LIFE HAS A LOT IN STORE FOR YOU, YOU DONT EVEN KNOW soo yea wtf am i telling you you already know this let me see what can you not know ummmmm.... actually you're mature enough to know things i don't need to remind you anything i just need to tell you that im with you and even when you have other ppl to be with, or the ppl ***** with you, dont forget ME because you do, ill stick with you so you have to stick with me yesss, umm what else i have to sayy, have you done it? i hope not, are you ready to do it? that's enough i guess😭 Happy Birthday Sweetheart💗💌 Happy Eighteen AAAAAAA❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 i love you and that's all you'll ever need, i wish the best for you!!