A letter from Mar 11, 2025

Dear Future Sandra, Did we end up loving ourselves? I mean not like finding a boyfriend to love us. I mean do we truly love ourselves, for every imperfection and perfection we have. Do we love the way our body looks, or do we just sit and stare at the mirror awkwardly as we do now. Do we look at our selves, with pride, and might. or do we just look in disgust still. Did the Tattoo help us feel better, did the shading in hurt? I know we got a rib tattoo and the linework did not hurt, so I am assuming the shading will not hurt either. Did we finally get over Andy? Did we stop checking up on him. Did we finally stop throwing up from anxiety, whenever we think about him. Did you make it into hvac, and get closer to God? Did we finally stop caring what others think, and stop letting people walk over us? Will we ever get to our goals, or will we become worthless. I feel pretty worthless right now, I feel like I am not doing much in life, but who knows, in one year. I might change, I have a interview on April 9th, for hvac. I am pretty excited, I hope I get this apprenticeship. it is Monday through Thursday 10 weeks long from 8 am to 11 pm. I hope I get into it, it would be nice to finally be worth something, to finally have a set career. Instead of having to worry about my hours/Job with new people constantly coming in and everything going chaotic. Did we get 100 followers on twitch? I am sure we did, I am a woman we get a bunch of guys thirsting and baam. Life is going alright so far right now, I have my friends, heather, family, my cat nosy, and calcifer my conure. ALSO you wont believe this, i reconnected with two of our exs. one talks to me often which is nice, the other doesnt talk much he apologized though. So atleast one of our ex's isnt a total piece of ****. Anyways, I am excited for the future I really am!!. I know we can make it, we have been through the worst imagineable thing ever. we can do it! if our rib tattoo didnt hurt I know we can do anything, if we made it through andys abuse and still are living and eating, we can make it. he does not define you, you will make it okay. goodluck, and write me back okay?