A letter from Mar 12, 2025

Who i am at 04:27, 12 march, 2025. Well! Chatgpt recommended me to do this and i thought it was a great idea so here i am - thinking: who am i? Im turning 14 in a month and idek how i feel about it. The thing is just that i hate growing up, i would like to stay young forever☹️ woah i just realized that i didnt want to grow up because my perspective would change and everything would be different but that already happened… everyone described turning 13 as literal HELL but for me? It was just so good. My perspective has completely changed (in a good way) i learned everything, i already know things that 95% of teenagers dont know yet. I think that im very mature for my age and smart enough. Yeah so dear future me as you can see im very proud of myself and everything is going well!! And if things were bad, it would be ok cuz even my mindset changed in a way where i think that suffering is the most important thing in life. Without suffering we would not learn from our mistakes and we wouldn’t be who we are now. We suffer - we learn, we make mistakes - we learn. Sooo currently the topic im most intelligent in is Love. Im not planning to have a boyfriend this year because why? Teenage love is not real and i dont wanna waste my time on some useless “relationship” that is not LOVE. Its always attraction and attraction never lasts, so why? My current plans are: find a new hobby, read a book, loose weight, defeat shyness/social anxiety, stop emotional eating, do something helpful for your future, study for good grades and your knowledge. The most important one: get a life and stop being on your phone all the day.. destroy that addiction. Recently i just realized how bad it is that i take meat and dairy EVERY DAY. I always had that love for animals but when it came to food i never realized.. i watched a horrible video of how animals were getting k!LLed just for US - the most horrible, evil creatures. Of course i cant imagine myself being a vegetarian, but at least i want to start trying eating vegetarian food, limit meat/dairy. Oh, and also my faith isnt that same anymore but im not an atheist either.. i do believe in god, i try, but its not that easy. And if i will be an atheist in the future then its ok, some things change, especially our perspectives and thats natural. My belief my choice. When my faith was very strong i used to judge everyone based on what they believed but now i learned how wrong i was. Its 05:00 now so byeeeee. Wonder how things will be in the future… love ya Mariam💝