A letter from Mar 07, 2025

Dear Lauren, my darling heart, How are you? So much can change in a year. At the end of 2023 you were reeling from a break up: devastated, heartbroken, lost and feeling betrayed and inadequate. You spent the majority of 2024 searching for who you were in this aftermath and what you wanted from life and love and relationships (romantic and otherwise). You dated a bit, but your heart wasn’t in it. You craved connection. But you also went inwards. How many nights did you spend on your couch hiding from the world? You found great peace in being alone. At the end of 2024 things started to feel differently… There’s something about the one-year mark… you started to really feel that you were glad things ended with Oscar, not just think it. I’m so happy to not be with him. I’m so happy in general. A since the end of 2024 I’ve relished not being in a relationship, even though I wanted love and connection… I’ve found this hard to navigate. I’m not sure what I want. I’m trying to be open, and not think about a label, or an end goal, and instead just being open to people who come into my life and ways of relating. I think one thing for me is, ultimately, I’m terrified. I have no tolerance for uncertainty and unreliability. My hope for you moving forward is that you move forward authentically. That you make authentic connections – both romantic and platonic – and that you don’t do anything because you’re trying to escape yourself. There’s no need to escape yourself. You’re great. The best thing about being you is you get to be with you. I will take care of you. I will look after you. I trust you. I’ll keep you safe, if you keep meeeee strong. All my love to you, xx