A letter from Mar 04, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I hope you’re doing well. Today marks almost 1 year since we broke up with S. Everyday since then was quite manageable until the week before when we realized that maybe he has moved on and is with someone else. The feeling of grief has washed over me. I’m crying, sobbing, as I write this to you. In a previous letter 2-years ago, I had written that we hoped we’d still be madly in love with him. I know I am and maybe that’s why it hurts to think he’s with someone else now, treating them better than he did with us a year prior. It’s the feeling of jealousy, regret, pain, and most of all grief that has stricken me. If he could treat someone with such love, then why didn’t he do so when he was with me? Or was I just too blind at the time to see his small gestures of love? All in all, I am sad. I am griefing. I am regretting. But there is nothing I can do about it now. The person I was at the time had no choice but to break it off because if not, she felt like she was drowning. Drowning in anger and frustration that this boy couldn’t give you what you wanted. And maybe it was the best for the both of us; to grow into the people that we are today. Maybe he has healed faster than you but that’s okay. What you’ve done is help him realize that he needed to grow up and if he treats someone else better because of that, then be proud and happy that he is happy. I’m writing this letter to you because I hope and pray that you’ve found someone that is madly in love with you and will be your forever from now onwards. If not, I hope that you’ve found peace with yourself knowing that you are loved by the people around you. Even if there’s no one else to love you, I do. Your past, future and present self will always love you and I trust that the actions you take are of your best interest. Please take care, Your Past Self.