A letter from Mar 03, 2025

Dear Future's Sho, Honestly, it's my first time writing, so you can probably guess it. I turned 15 today, I'm not sure about a loot of stuff but I just have that rooted gut feeling, like usual again, that everything's gonna work out well. I mean that's the only way I can keep myself sane. I'm pretty sure we both know, our responsibilities, our burdens and all our insecurities that hold ourselves back most the time. I mean how can you and I both not be afraid of failing? It's just so scary. I can't afford to fail and yet I can't get myself to study at all. I know that I have only one job, and yet I don't do it properly and obviously you must know, family's ****. I mean, you and I both probably aren't fond of them and stuff but they kind of are doing a lot for us and stuff but a lot also includes the terrible and heart-wrenching things they've done. Someone told me not to hold grudges today as something new for my birthday and I kind of understand their perspective but I just can't. I'm not sure if I want to like write a lot because, judging me, I'll know everything I've wanted to write here but was too lazy or tired to do so, a year later or even 10 years later. I'm not sure about what the past me things of my decisions at this point, but I really do wish that you're proud of all of my decisions and you still believe on never regretting anything<3 You yourself.