A letter from Mar 03, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I’m in the dorm rn about to go to sleep. Just wanted to type out what I think/hope is going to happen in the next year. -things are going good with Maddie so I hope to still be seeing her -hope to be living in an apartment with Chris and Daniel -staying lean? Things I’m worried about rn -what am I going to do after college? -will things work out with Maddie? -will I be healthy in a year? -relationship with mom/dad Rn I’m kinda mad/sad that the semester is half way over. Doesn’t give me much time to hang out with Maddie,Chris,Daniel,miles and everybody. We just had our first cookout yesterday, went really good. For some reason Tazzy (Chris’ girl) and Maddie wanted to play tackle football lol. It was fun though, definitely hope to do it again. We plan on making it a weekly thing and I really hope we do. I think my hair is the longest it’s ever been, not sure how much longer I want it to get. Things that annoy me rn -I’m so broke lol -not seeing gym results fast enough (goal is abs by summer) -uncertain about future I will admit I haven’t felt the same since talking to Maddie. The more I talk to her the more I realize she might be the one. I do know that I fall to easily though, is this really the right one or am I just surprised/excited that someone shows interest? Things I need to work on -over sharing Daniel kinda broke my trust the other day in the car with Maddie. I have to stop oversharing because it always bites my ***. -eating I either eat to much or to little. My body prolly hates me cause it’s either being stuffed or starved. I hate that I look to food for comfort, I will definitely not allow my kids to do this. -self esteem Probably something I will always struggle with, hate what look like but it’s slowly getting better. I feel like I get walked over or overlooked a lot. Even by friends. It’s the small things that get to me and I don’t know if I’m overreacting or not. Things like not making room for me to walk beside them, asking me to do things that’s easier for them to do than me, speaking while I’m speaking and stuff like that. Hopefully by the time you get this message you don’t feel like that. Weight ~190 Just ran for the first time and kinda surprised I ran for the whole 30 minutes Hopefully running will get rid of lower belly fat and I can start seeing abs for the summer