A letter from February 27th, 2025

Dear FutureMe, jayden the boy whoms fav movie is mr plankton. the boy who likes straykids,big hugs, Indie but Not Himself. He begges god to let the pain go away. Did God think hes this strong? He asked it daily. I knew hes the strongest Person i met. especially his mom too. My love lost his father and soon himself too. Hes getting hate but do they rlly know what He is like? Hes the one boy that cares for you and asks how your day was. The one that would die so He wont have his mother in R. The boy that never hates anybody but him. Selflove is Not simple but i love him with all my heart. i knew him like 1 week but it felt like hes my childhood best friend. The childhood friend that i just lost... I was the first He told that He has a brin Tumor.Was the first one that cried. How could anyone do this to my lovely boy. How can you give him that much Pressure in that little time he had left. So i was even happier when he wrote. Hearing that it gets worse Breaked me. He told his cousin about me. Kayleen Was the one that knew that i liked him. She was the one that told me first when smth was wrong with jayden. And she did. Yesterday. She told me that He eventuelly Triest smth tonight. i Was going for a walk. I wrote him but He didint answer. my World was slowly Falling apart. He finally answered. I thought everything is fine now. He said sorry a lot because He made me cry. I was just happy that He was still alive. Then He didnt answered again. I felt sick. My stomach felt that smth was wrong. Kayleen told me that He js gave her all her Passworts. I knew what that means. He ll be gone soon. We tried to call him but He wasnt there. Kayleen loggen in his tiktok acc. we found a long message so indie. He said that He loves her and when she reads this He will be gone. My boy will be gone? The one that mades me smile every day? The one i thought i would say goodbye to in 2 Month and Not right now. One of the last messages to me was,, i love you never forget that okay". I knew it was an Goodbye. I told him that He shouldn **** himself. Pink promise? He didnt answer... He was in haven at that time. Im shure god heard him comming. You cant Not See his beautiful Face and his sprakling soul. Hes gone? He is gone. His mother heard him and found him dead.  She has no one anymore. Only kayleen and her family. I cried and cried. I called my bsf because she was asleep at that time. ,, Hes gone " was the first sentence. I couldnt say anything more. I needed to be quiet because my Patents would hear me cry.  Should i Tell them that i just lost one