A letter from Feb 15, 2025

Dear FutureMe, How are you doing? I'm writing this letter after a failed try to find a previous letter I had written some years ago. I believe the best way to understand me is to take an objective look at my past self, so I'm gonna talk a bit about my current self. These days I'm feeling desperate, helpless, and empty. Due to many reasons, I guess. I started working with BPG almost 10 months ago, and it's been a while since I've been feeling that I'm stuck in the same place. I know if I put in sufficient effort, everything would be better, but honestly, I'm exhausted from trying. I know I shouldn't give up, but at the same time, I'm wondering why I always need to fight and try hard? For once can't I get something for good smoothly? What a cynical destiny! Will, maybe all these thoughts because I stopped taking my medicines abruptly. I've been trying to quit those bad habits for ages, but there are no signals of improvement. I hope my future self is successful in a few at least. There are so many things that will be great to be shared with my future me for good, but I'm not in the best condition to do so now. Maybe I'll share it in another letter soon, hopefully. Dear FutureMe, I sincerely hope you're doing beyond well and everything is going well with you because you deserve to, wallah. Best luck and wishes, Feb25 Me.