A letter from Feb 15, 2025

Dear FutureMe, (15/2/25)lakshya remember when on one Sunday you were attending Madhur Virli's show and after dinner at Rajiv you went to your room and used omeTV where you met this girl who complimented you and told you were a 9.5. You just couldnt take it, you remember how you talked for an hour and then her camera lagged and you thought you'll never talk to her again , but the chat was working and she gave you her snap "dino_17sep" Ananya arya. You finally felt so relieved when it was working its been a week and I've been talking to her almost daily for 1 or 2 hours, **** seems so unreal and has given me an entirely new experience, ive not been indulged in any of my bad habits since a week (effortless) it seems so unreal, I also did a rant about your life a few days ago. Man really the feeling I have now is so exciting and disturbing at the same time it makes me question how I feel about myself and also makes me feel like I don't know myself at all. ive been trying to get my CG up but just can't make consistent efforts, this is so crazy still my work life hasnt changed significantly i do feel I have a chance now seeing how the old bad habits that lasted for years just vanish like they weren't even there. Man remember the feeling I'm having now take a pause and go thank her or at least talk to her and tell her what your life looks like currently. In case you aren't able to contact you also found one of her friends snap "abc_d1870". she also will be in college right now ask her how her life is now. I feel like I do not even know how I think about myself, all my assumptions about myself are completely wrong im just starting to see things i believed about myself crumble to nothingness.