A letter from Feb 12, 2025

Dear FutureMe, How are you? How is everything going. This is you from 2025, feeling a little sad.. and maybe a tad bit jealous.. just a little bit. Reason, sad bcoz its valentines day.. again.. and well you were single.. and u know how it gets you.. sometimes.. its been forever.. you just always have been single..last time you were in a relationship was with a guy.. who is married now.. after that..well its a series of bad luck.. i forgot abt this girl for a while.. oh ya.. she was my valentine for a while.. 6-7months to be exact, but apart from that.. no one worth staying. Do i hv a v high standard in people.. or anyone in general? I am just yr.. no matter wt i say.. ut is lonely.. it gets a little lonely.. and now i am just a person with so many walls its just so hard to break through.. i went on dates with 8 people.. 8 is a lot of ppl.. and none of thm.. were worth staying or evn stopping.. is the prob me? I know fr a fact its not. I m just sooo.. argh.. i am also a lil jealous.. of my best frnd rn, she sets her mind to something and gets it. Right now its the men. They are chasing her.. she is atleast hvng smone right now to talk.. atleast there is hope.. idk.. i hv a hint.. bt..i am happy for her really.. but wt abt me though.. whn will tht happn for me?? I m just a lik emotional today, nothing else, i dont want to be just strong .. high walled person.. i want someone to care abt me too.. will i ever get it?? I have been writing these letters from so long.. every year wishing and hoping, that my future self has someone.. bt.. its just.. nothing.. these days i just keep getting this feeling.. maybe i’ll be left behind.. and maybe all my romantic wishes and feelings will just be that.. wishes.. so here i am with another letter to me.. wishing.. this feeling changed.. i hope you are feeling better today.. coz i am not.. bt i’d like to think the future feeling is better.. Happy valentines day or whatever