A letter from Feb 09, 2025

Dear 18-year-old me, Hey. I want to try writing an actual serious letter to myself, maybe just as a source of venting or getting my thoughts down. So, anyway, happy birthday!! You're finally an adult, huh. That's scary. Just as scary as heading off to college soon, with maybe some aid, maybe not. Heading to place where you know no one, or where you can't get a fresh start. A place that's probably pretty good, but not good enough. Isn't that ~amazing~? Of course not. The future terrifies me. I mean, its probably all worked out for the better, but what if it hasn't? What if I made a mistake? Is this the path I want to go down? Is this what will make me happy? This isn't the type of letter you wanted to receive lol. Like I said, lots of venting and existential nonsense. There's a reason we're INFP. But, as a little sneak peak into the past, here's where we are now: - Studying for that Unit 6 Bio test (pleaseeee tell me its a good score) - Ammi had her surgery 5 days ago - In the last weeks of competition for Mock Trial (first time as attorneys!!) - Procrastinating as usual - Just finished reading a book (the one with the student reporter and soccer player roommate) - The TMP Presentation next week - Having a crisis every day - Moon about to take that ancestry test (maybe find our brother?) - STILL only at 4 hours (girl do we ever get our license) Not that much going on. A little boring. Repetitive. But definitely more welcome than working on college apps - or worrying about the future in general. This is actually very cathartic, I might do this more often. Am I jumping around, yes. Do I apologize? ehhhhh So yeah, I've been dealing with some emotions, but it'll be fine soon. Maybe. Hopefully. I really hope the future is ok for us. I don't think I'm ok. ENOUGH ABOUT MEE - college will be fine. Everyone will be fine. Life will be ok. We don't need to worry so much, just trust the process right?? We're not the smartest, the strongest, or the cleverest, but we've made it this far. I believe that you'll be ok. We'll be ok. I guess this is where I should close off, I actually need to get started on my homework lol. I hope life ends up working out for us. Try to remember the good things when you feel sad. Or send another letter our way. Regards, 16-year-old you