A letter from Jan 29, 2025

Dear J, hey I can't say I hope your doing well because I honestly hope your having the worst time of your life right now. I want to hate you so badly but I can't bring myself to do it. you were more than patient with me you showed me that even the ugliest, weirdest and most ordinary person can be loved. Before you I sued to look in the mirror and just see how I ugly I was and how disgusted I was with myself. during our "relationship" I felt desired I felt that no matter how bad, disgusting or ugly I looked it didn't matter bc you still loved me and cared for me no matter how broken I was. it was a toxic relationship but it was the first time I genuinely felt loved, liked and cared for. I just wanna tell you one more time that I loved that time I spent with you but I hate who you became afterwards. I hate you so much but there will be a piece in you in me always. I will always remember you as the boy who showed me that even ugly girls like me can be loved and I am so thankful for that but I foresee hate you for disrespecting me in that way. but then again I wish you the best of luck in the future I hope you figure your life out and have the 3 kids you want, the dog, the big house and the loving wife you told me about hoping it would be me. but I never want to hear from you again.