A letter from Jan 27, 2025

Hey happy birthday twin, Since 2023, life has been pretty tough on us, but I can feel us getting better, and that’s what really matters. I’ve been sober for about six months now. I still think about relapsing sometimes, but when I think about the promise I made to him, I know I can’t. I hope that you and he are back together now. I really love him, and that feeling hasn’t gone away. I’ll be turning 14 soon, and while I’m excited, there’s also a part of me that’s scared. Scared that all the progress I’ve made might crumble because Mom and Dad are planning on moving away. I don’t really like it here, but I’ve met some people, and I try to see something good in everyone I meet. I’ve found comfort in music and drawing, and I also really enjoy playing basketball. Being single isn’t as bad as I thought it would be, but whenever something exciting happens, I still get that feeling—the one that makes me want to tell him everything that’s going on. Today, I’m going to send him a letter, and when he gets it, I know I’ll probably ghost him. I know it’ll hurt him, but that’s just what I do, and I don’t know how to stop. Happy birthday, kiddo.