A letter from January 25th, 2025

Dear FutureMe,can't wait for all those desires to become a better version of yourself in this new year heh.Sadly, I slipped from my track and now I've got no goals to reach.Is it because I've grow up?I don't know. It could be anything.For example, my ****** up mental health right now. Not being able to do anything but rot on the bed and wish for a better life.But what does "better life" mean? I still have no answer so I really hope I'll be able to find it eventually. However, I will NEED to work sooner or later which is not really cool with my state right now.Or it could be too much stress that I gathered while growing up. University. New people. New life. Alone... The worst part about growing up is that you realize. Realize something that crushes you. You are alone in this life and only you make it.It's still really difficult for me to understand it. I'm not ready for this. I don't think I will ever be.
At least I'm trying...