A letter from Jan 21, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I just want to send this message off because I hope that one day I will experience this. I was going to send a screenshot but it seems like futureme letters can only be written with words. So I will type out the screenshot instead: there's a japanese word/phrase 'koi no yokan' - that doesn't describe the idea of love at first sight but the untranslatable feeling upon meeting someone that falling in love with them is inevitable At this current moment in my life, I have felt what it was like to receive love. I hope in the next chapter of my life (your current time), I would feel what it is like to give love - openly and unconditionally and to be so willing to do that for someone so special to me. Hopefully, it goes both ways and I am wishing that it does but you never know what will happen in life. Throughout my entire life, of all the crushes/situationships that I have had (I have never dated any properly - primary 6 does not count, although I held on to that for so long because it was the first time anyone had ever confessed to me and I didn't think anyone would find me attractive), I don't think I have ever loved any of them. Sure, I have been fond of their company and really liked traits about them but they weren't people I loved unconditionally. I would see their flaws as flaws. I would see their mistakes as mistakes. I would hold grudges when affection was not reciprocated. So yeah, I don't think I have ever loved any of them or I suppose anyone like that before. Anyways, yeah hopefully by the time you receive this letter you would have felt this feeling. If you have in the future, I am truly, truly, truly so happy for you because you deserve it and I deserve it and primary 6 you deserve it and all other versions of you deserve it because you deserve to be loved and to love in that way. Everyone does. I guess, also, it has been a long time coming and I hope you savour and cherish every bit of it because not everyone gets to experience it and you are the luckiest girl to be experiencing it. I hope that you never second guess how deserving you are of love - mask it how you want but you are not undeserving of love and you are not incapable of giving love or being in a relationship. You might think so, because all your friends have been and you are just here wondering when you will have your first kiss but you are not, and I will be there celebrating every step of the way with you when you finally do. Much love and gratitude, 23rd year old Sophia