A letter from Jan 21, 2025

Hi dear, another year has passed. I know you're currently feeling a bit lost. Lost in doing things that need to be done but don't feel meaningful. Just this morning you thought that you gave up on many habits you enjoyed. Taking your dog to the forest, even in winter, walking up that hill, watching the early sunset. Bundled up. Coffee or matcha with you. Having coffee in a little café every now and then. Going to art markets and fleamarkets just to enjoy the hunt. Planning holidays and travel to places without it being too much stress to deal with. I hope you get to do more of that this year. I hope you get to calm down a bit and give yourself permission to focus on yourself. You feel like you don't have the energy for being socially active, for dating, to expand your life. Instead, it became smaller, every year, since moving to Norway. You took up painting last year and sewing and creating and i hope you're ready to tackle those big canvases, those large projects that require love and patience, try glass blowing and pottery and jewelry making and follow things that bring you joy. I hope you made the new apartment cozy and a place to breathe in relief when coming home to your little dog. I hope you stuck to training him so living with him feels more open and gives you more freedom. He's currently on the couch with a hurt claw after a week of health scares at the vet. He's such a champion and your heart just overflows when he yawns. He can be annoying and perfect at the same time and that's ok. He's always doing his best, and so are you. It doesn't matter if the result is outstanding, as long as you are doing as much as you can that day or week or month. You have smaller plans this year, less travel, less stress, less urgency. I hope that equates to more life. I hope you start yoga or movement and calm down. I hope therapy keeps you learning about yourself, not only out of curiosity but also to keep healing and feel better about yourself, your life, and your choices, so that instead of reacting to triggers, you can start living your best life here despite them. Your sister is going to have a baby in May and everything will change. I hope, even though you're scared now, of making mistakes and losing your best friend who is also someone who also helped you grow up, like a guardian, you will find that your relationship is just expanding you will keep that bond and get closer. I hope you are less lonely in 2025. I hope you find meaningful connections, and great books and stories, I hope you're full of love and curiosity. I hope you take that trip to Northern Norway this year and enjoy some time off the grid. I hope you thrive and grow beyond your boundaries this year. You deserve it. You deserve happiness. I love you. You're doing great.