A letter from January 18th, 2025

Dear FutureMe,
Today was january 19, 2025 2:33 am,
I'm writing this message to my future me. you cannot sleep 'cuz you are still thinking of him. I thought u can finally move on after u confess your feelings to him?!, yes nag confess kana sakanya akala ko ba kahit ano man ang mangyari hindi ka aamin??, then why are u still thinking of him huh?!, why did u confess?!, why did u broke your promise to your self?!, u know naman na may gusto s'yang iba diba, bakit kapa nag risk kung alam mo naman agad yung sagot. You send your confession to his closes friend at around 7:35 pm january 18, 2025 saturday night, and u receive the answer at 8:29 pm that day, receiving message from him saying. 
"pasabi nalang thank you sa lakas ng loob, hindi yan mag wo-work kasi dealing ako sa iba, titigilan ko nalang yung pag jo-joke ng ganon para makausad ren sya HAHHAA di nmn ako galit or something, kasalanan ko rin eh, pero mas okay na nalaman ko na, makakausad na sya kamo HAHAHHA apaka random neto ah, pero ayun na appreciate ko nmn yung mahabang sulat thanks sa effort"
after you read that message, umiiyak ka. u feel so lost. pakiram*** mo pinaglaruan ka. pakiram*** mo you don't deserve to feel genuine love, u feel so heartbroken that moment after you read his message to you. 
why are u crying?!.., di'ba 'yan naman talaga ang gusto mo marinig sakanya?!..., sinulat mo yung confession mo sakanya kasi gusto mo na makausad at kalimutan kung ano man yung nararamdaman mo sakanya. nu'ng nakuha mo na yung gusto mong sagot, bakit umaasa kapa din???.., akala ko ba uusad kana??!!..,bakit andyan kapa din sa sitwasyon na yan... are you still hoping for a chance for both of you. don't break your heart for this one sided love. 
hopefully when the time is right, you finally meet the guy that can love u unconditionally. the guy who give what u deserve. the guy who will never broke your heart again. the guy knows you more than anyone. 
sana sa mga oras na binabasa mo 'to nakausad kana sakanya, sana u still friends, sana masaya kayo sa kanya kanya n'yong love life kung meron man sa mga oras na 'to. future me hope u learn a lesson na today. wag magmahal sa hindi sigurado, hindi masama mag mahal o magkagusto sa taong kaibigan mo lang dapat, don't forget your worth, you can grow with your own. masakit talaga umasa kung alam mo naman na may iba s'yang gusto at never na magiging ikaw 'yon. 
Hopefully u still remember this piece stories of your life "Nang minsang umibig ka sa dapat kaibigan mo lang"ang una at huli mong risk na ginawa mo sa buhay mo.