A letter from Jan 18, 2025

Rose died today at 1:30am. We came back from Japan at 6am yesterday she was lost for 11 hours and we found her terrified behind a tree she hadn’t moved for 11 hours since dad and lyvi came to get us from the airport. Mum and dad then quickly rushed her to the vet hospital and she was staying over night then we got a call at 1am saying she’s in cardiac arrest and she’s having a heart attack they said there still might be a chance that she’s awake when we get there but when we got there she had already passed. She looked so peacefull and the vet assured us that she went calmly so she wasn’t in any sort of pain. Mum thinks her heart was always going to be the cause of her ***** as she wasn’t so scared of storms. It’s crazy to think that now we don’t have anyone to worry about during storms or get annoyed at for being in our way in the kitchen or to knock on our door in the hope we’d let her in or even to be excited that we came home running laps across the gaps jumping and doing skids on her back legs. I wish I could have showed her more love I hate that I didn’t have a mat in my room for her cause I thought she wasn’t allowed in my room because of carpet yet I didn’t even protest to let her in my room. I would never leave the door open for her to come in and if she pushed her way in I would always send her out. I hate that I didn’t say good morning to her everyday with a pat and some days I didn’t acknowledge her at all. That absolutely ***** me. She definitely knew other things than love and care and it ***** me. To think I only walked her around 20 times in both our lives. She was a healthy and happy dog however spent most her days laying on her bed because all of us were busy with our tv shows. To think if we had gotten back from Japan when dad and lyvi did she may still be alive because we would have sent her to the vet. It’s not normal for a dog to be depressed and eat bowls and bowls on end of food that she use to hate. She looked so peaceful in the bed she passed in she was such a cute good dog. I hate to think that I fully forgot she knows how to shake hands we use to shake her hand every time we gave her a smacko. Smackos were definitely her favourite food. It’s only been a couple of hours and I’ve been non stop crying, I miss her. I don’t think our family will ever get over her. We just came home from getting a blood test and I saw a cow the exact same colour as rose white with brown spots, I think her soul carried on into that cow. Rest in peace Rosie Sparkle Lee you were the best dog a family could ever ask for. I love you so much always and forever.