A letter from Jan 17, 2025

Hello Rashmin of the near future. It is the 17th of January rn and hopefully you'll see this on the 3rd of September when you turn 19(unc season). I'm writing this just to test the waters ig idk why I'm doing this because I know I'm gonna look back at this time and romanticize it and put myself in unbearable amounts of melancholy. Anyway, life has been good not much to complain, I finally feel like I closed the gaping hole in my chest. My dad is finally around for me and though things are complicated af dealing with his relationship with my mom, I think it's good for me to have him. Financial wise and a mentor wise, I enjoy his company. Reyah and Mamma are well, but I really should be doing better to make them proud and hopefully, I'll be doing better. Two things stressing me out rn unc: 1. PAN Card. I need my **** done or else I cant be getting money ever again 2. Scholarship. If I lose my scholarship, it's gonna be scary hours and I pray the future me doesn't have to suffer because of past me's mistakes I hate bringing people into my life and attachment and allat because I know everyone's gonna leave me at some point. That being said, you have great friends rn and they'd do most things for you and you would do most things for them. Cherish them Rashmin. I mean I'm only writing this because Niki showed me about this, I appreciate that Niki. Oh and don't forget the people back home, they still have you in their hearts nobody has forgotten you, they have priorities and hey that's fine I can understand. I know not much changes in 6 months in your mind bro but lately things have been moving mad quick. You'll get through these times vro trust. Don't smoke often, never drink, keep the getting high to a minimum too. People love you rn Rashmin. Even if they don't in 8 months.You have me, your dad, your mom, reyah and mohan.