A letter from Jan 17, 2025

Dear FutureMe, its a friday 17/01/2025 and i have a feeling not knowing if its fear or exitment for change الحمدللله i have a job for the moment but i want to go outside the country to make a better living for me and my familly , thinking that i need some space and alone time far from this houshold , to find myself and peace i hace this idea of be a cabin crew or anything just to be far away i don't have plans for the future am lost not knowing what i want all i can think for the moment is to drop everything and follow a dream that i don't even know if it will suit me , not gonna lie am scared , but don't know what the future is holding for me i beg u ALLAH help find my way and accomblish what i never though i could do, am writing this letter with that feeling in me i want to cry but my tears or dry am tired i keep thinking my mind is blocked all i wish for the moment is allah make my future in sort of been the best version of my self and find hapiness