A letter from Jan 16, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Okay so! I am writing this on Jan 16th because on Jan 3rd you were kinda busy AND kinda depressed. Obviously. That was predictable. You are still depressed but you thought you should write this anyways. Sooo yea. Wassupp, how is being 26??? Omygod I can't imagine. I already feel old. Anyways, the reason you felt depressed on Jan 3rd was silly, obviously. Acha Amma took me to Dusit Thani, Dubai to celebrate my birthday!! Yayyyy!!! It was supposed to be such a happy thing but of course, my brain had to feel bad about all the money spent and then feel guilty that I am not able to enjoy it because I keep thinking about all the money spent. I just feel bad that I don't know if I will ever get a good enough job to treat them like this. I hope I do. God I hope I do. I am going to be so sad if I don't have a job while reading this. You know what, I will continue all that depression talk in diary. Soo basically, there is nothing to say now. Anyhoo, I wonder if you have found your special someone yett. Was it Vishnu? Are you laughing right now because it was not Vishnu at all? Have I met him already??? It is all so exciting! Anyways, I am just feeling so down about so many things. But one thing that is serious is my insecurities about my body and skin. It is too much honestly. I have been eating a lot in Abudhabi since I came after so long. But every single day I, without fail, call myself ugly and fat. So that has got to stop. I also got a haircut today, which became too short, and now it has made things worse. I want to cry right now but it feels too silly right now, but soon enough something is bound to trigger me. So yeah, so many things. But especially the insecurity. It has got to stop. I need to diet if that is what will help. Need to do something. Anyways, I pray to god I have a job while reading this. And all my family and friends are happy, safe and healthy. Soo yea, back to topic. I need to remind myself hair grows back. Pretty fast, too, in my case. Also my chechi looks so cute in this hairstyle so why can't I? I don't know what else to write so yea this is 25 year old you signing off. Tataaa Have a nice birthday!