A letter from Jan 16, 2025

Dear Dumba**, What is the one problem that has been bothering your mind recently? A problem I've been having lately, that has been plaguing me for a bit now is just my lack of any personal time or space. I get overwhelmed so easily now a days and it's genuinely becoming a massive issue. I remember days when I was completely insensitive, nothing affected me. Deaths go by and nothing would change, tradegies occur without me flinching. But now i'm close to the opposite. I'm so overwhelmed with everything that it becomes detrimental to everything I do. Not like i'm sensitive, but I overthink and it causes more and more issues. Describe the people who are closest to you (parents, siblings, teachers, boyfriend/girlfriend, best friends), how you feel about them, and how you hope that relationship is in the future. I want nothing more than to continue everything I have right now. I am content when it comes to my relationships with people and I couldn't ask for more, I just hope it doesn't turn to less. Especially Syla, Ryan and Halo. Those three are right now probably my closest friends and the people I could trust with my legitimate lives. Describe a goal or goals that you want to accomplish throughout the next year(s). Could be a goal in any aspect: physically, socially, academically, psychologically, etc. I want to get better with my pathological lying. It's inconsequential and small idiotic things that make literally no difference or hurt nobody, but it's such a horrible habit that I have and it drives me crazy having to keep them up. I just want to slow that pace or entirely remove it. It's just sort of addicting to feel that 'belief' in me despite what happens. How do you hope you will be different from the person you are today? Describe how you imagine you will have changed. I want to become a better storyteller, dm, voice actor and most of all, friend. That's what I hope. But I expect that after high school, i'll be lost. Reliant on people and avoidant. I'm not sure what i'll do and honestly I stave away from the thought because it's scary. It scares probably everyone. I'm confident i'll live and go into the culinary field though. What advice would you give to your future self? Just please, please don't mess up again like you have. Remember and learn from what you've done.