A letter from Jan 16, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hi I am imad from 1 year ago I played a lot of Roblox I don't have a drivers licence at 18 and pretty much I feel like a failure I sit alone at lunch all the time I never speak too well because there's someone interrupting and I realize its hard to have a conversation with someone when they are also talking to 3 different people the high points of my year is improving in programming and animation is the only good flex I have I didn't get a gf cant successfully date at least just 1 person no matter how hard I tried for 3 years my lowest points was depression and not being accepted mostly anywhere I don't meant jobs but I mean in groups of people or groups and it just sucks when people assume false crap to make me look bad like I already hate myself enough I don't need more crap to make myself hate myself even more The only major impact was Sophia leaving Ballard without a proper goodbye or anything didn't tell me or do anything just left for her bf I think the funny thing is my potential girlfriend is Sophia its a different person they made the major impact on how I talk to her how to be a good or better person I wanted to be tougher as my new year goal but I decided to be better or nicer despite being crappy citizens making whatever excuse they want to to ignore and it just happen to be Asian girls like there gods or worth more then men or something. in 2024 I learned more programming and animation I did a chess piece and I did modeling in miss zink's class the fun thing is I bounded more with Ms zink then Sophia even thou I wanted to bound more with Sophia if I could change anything I would go back to improperly flirting with this one girl that basity messed me up so bad it still damages me today how idiotic I was and the damage is still being done to me despite me actually changing and being less interested in girls Looking ahead I want to run more I want to program a actually Roblox game and hopefully I make money or a lot of robux lol and I just want to pass high school maybe a degree to do programming or law enforcement to protect people I am gonna for now practice pinoa if I ever can and get a steady drivers licence to take Sophia for a date