A letter from Jan 14, 2025

Dear Jamaica, Hi older self. This is your heartbroken, lost, used up version. It's been a tough year in 2024, specially because of this one boy whom you've loved so. Can you believe how you wrote a whole *** book of poetry for him? Insane right? But that's just love. Anyways, let's not talk about that loser. Let's talk about us. You. How's the future? Is it better than where I am now? Because now sucks. I can feel the anxiety building up. I hope when you read this, graduate na tayo. I hope that you still have the joy that was once lost. I really hope and pray that life is better there and it is now. Because now? I am suffering. Jam, life is tough but so are you. Malayo na tayong narating. Please don't ever, ever, ever give up. Do it for us, for mama. I love you so much. You deserve all the love in this world. You deserve to be spoiled and loved. You deserve a man who will treat you like a queen and will spoil you like a princess. You deserve all the love and respect. Please do not betray yourself for anyone. Choose yourself always. I love you Jam, truly. Always take care of yourself. P.S. May abs na ba tayo? With all the love and care, Jamaica B. Verano