A letter from January 13th, 2025

Dear FutureMe, If we break up before he gets his phone back and is able to check snap, he will eventually see all the pictures i randomly sent him when i was bored. I still send more occasionally and i do it on purpose and so he can see a lot of photos of me from different times all at the same time, whenever that will be. Im also using a auto scroller and recording all our ould messages so if anything happens or even if im just bored, i can watch it and just remember. Sometimes letting go is forgetting, but i like reliving good times even if it’s sad because sometimes just feeling it and letting the sad reminiscence wash over me feels right. All i can do to stop this is to tell myself to stay ignorant, let go, forget, move on, but i cant allow myself closure. Curiosity ***** the cat and all i can say is “don’t be sad it’s over, be happy it happened at all”