A letter from Jan 10, 2025

Dear FutureMe, what is my future? Where will I be? What shall I do? I’m in a new place. A new place I can stay at. I will be here for a while, work at this big shop. Become a pro slowly. I will be unable to work anywhere else if I stay here too long. So? What do we do… What’s my plan I want a wife and kids? Do I? Please I’m in a rut and I’m feeling bad My whole life is in ruins I’m late to an event that I don’t really want to attend Stella’s going to be there and i’m not in a state to see her It’s Dimis big night and I haven’t got them anything omg how horrible is that how overwhelming to be here right now how terribly overwhelming.. I. dont! want! to! go! I want to rest… Feels like everything is going bad… I’ll take a cab and go there and dance . I’ll just wear everyday clothes and go. And say HB. **** I’m so overwhelmed **** baby I’m so alone. What are my dreams and goals? Surely not cleaning and taking the car to the engineer I mean the meaningful part. Surely not doing stuff like therapy. I mean the fun part I mean not doing yoga and exercising. I mean the fun part. anyway. Life is what it is. I mean, you get the fiestas. But you also get other stuff. I wasn’t at Dimis birthday last year. Will I make it this time? Dunno. I’m so tired. Maaaaan Am I hot ? Kinda Are the chicks gonna be hot ? I bet! What about other peeps malaka kosma den ise katholou etoimos gia tipota OK skepsou.. Τι ονειρα εχεις; θες να πηγαινεις ωραιες διακοπες να τραγοθδας να ψηλωνεις να οδηγεις να τραγουδας πολυ να βαδιζεις γρηγορα να εισαι καλα να εισαι γερός τι θες να κανεις; εχεις παρα πολυ χρονο να το κανεις. Μαζεψε λεφτα. η επενδυσε. η και μην το κανεις. η πολλη κουραση θα καταληξει αρρωστια. γιαβαυτο τερμα η κουραση. θα ξεκουραστω. εισαι αγαπητος εισαι αγαπημενος αγαπας και εσυ και ενδοαφερεσι κανονισε κατι ωραιο ενα περιπατο αυριο παρε τους δρομους πηγαινενστη βασω