A letter from Jan 10, 2025

Dear FutureMe, ahem, so... well idk what to say so just gonna rant about everything . right now just chilling but need to study cant belive i am 16 now well.....need lot to do get up and stop being lazy dont know what to do with future what will i do i am just a dumb kid .....i dont like anyone but still dont get why everyone just give me so much attention and want to talk to me idk wht the hell everyone is so sweet to me even tho i am just an idiot who is rude with everyone own parents dont have any expectations i will do anything so about people i dint care until i met some special person ... idk what is wrong with me no a one thing that goes good for me , ia m hunted buy the though of not doing anything when i try to get up my own people say you will not do anything , i still dont know HOW TO DO EVERYHTING , i am so done with the word PREFECT.. everything and anything everywhere this word . when i care i hurt myself when i dont i feel emotionless , feeling less, cold hearted person...my own people said why ? cuz i was mean when they scold or just get irritated by me for breathing for getting born , yup so that all .