A letter from Jan 09, 2025

Dear FutureMe, day 15. My daily affirmation: I'm calm and peaceful. Nothing bothers me. Everything is temporary. I live in the here and now and am grateful for what I have. I am thankful for being alive. I am patient. Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of: Procrastinating and overthinking. I am grateful for: Raindrops falling, wind whistling and birds chirping through my phone. The ability to be writing this right now. Myself for keeping on going although it's really hard. My silly sweet fur pals and my family. Roof over my head. Opportunity to meet open-minded, creative, accepting, sensitive, welcoming, supportive and loving people such as the ones at Zalianamis. The person I am becoming will experience more: Clarity, peace, joy, love, abundance, creativity, wisdom, energy and patience. I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I: Don't take anything personally as well as don't absorb others' feelings, thoughts, emotions and energies. Observe rather than react. Love and accept myself without guilt, shame or blame. When I think about who I am becoming I feel: Glad, excited, hopeful, reassured, content and proud of my healing. I'm determined to finally start writing diary today. Paper diary. No matter how scary it seems to just lay your insides on paper that could later be grasped or read by anyone from your surroundings. I need to free my creativity, my voice, my thoughts. I need to face my fears and move forward. I'm feeling really tired, lost and confused. My meditation course starts today. I feel at loss for words though there's much I would like to untangle in my inner world. I want to clear it out, free it. Free myself. I feel as if there are some blocks stopping me from feeling and being free and it gets quite frustrating and draining at times. But it's okay. I accept it. Everything happens at its own pace. I just need space and time in order to grow, to bloom. I need not force myself and just be. Be in the moment. Keep going, keep trying and keep taking care of yourself. Love, Light and Peace, sev