A letter from Jan 08, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I am at the best place and time to be in my life but why I am so sad deep down? Why do I accept the bare minimum from someone who doesn’t care about me, who doesn’t consider me above other people. I can’t say no to him cause i feel like there will be consequences and he just uses me like it’s work. Why am I seeking validation from him just because he doesn’t want to give it to me is it cause it’s so difficult to communicate with me? I haven’t had my period in 54 days. Took 2 pregnancy tests were both negative so what is wrong with me? I just want to die so badly. Like if I were to die tomorrow everything will be okay. My cat will probably eat me and who will know? My favourite song at the moment is 30 for 30 by Kendrick Lamar feat Sza