A letter from Jan 07, 2025

Dear FutureMe, It's funny how life works. It's like every start of a year I'm at my lowest. And this January isn't any different. Everything is ****. I feel like ****. I'm actual **** now. It's like a cycle and I don't know if it will ever end. I don't know what to do with myself. I broke up with Jaheim because I thought it was the best thing to do for the both of us. It hurts so much leaving him like that knowing I'm his everything. I feel like the worst person ever. I always end up ruining every relationship I have with people because of how I am. I miss my mom so much. I wish she was here so that I won't have to be alone crying in my room like a ******* loser. It's like I'm walking on eggshells around myself, one inconvenience happens and I'm immediately crying like a child. What the **** man. I don't even have fhe energy to even think about bettering myself. I don't have the energy to do anything. I can't even think straight anymore, I feel like an empty shell just waiting to be crushed into pieces into the ground and forgotten like I never existed in the first place. I'm so ******* tired. I feel like I have nothing else left to look forward to. I miss my mom so much. I miss her so much.