A letter from Jan 07, 2025

Dear FutureMe, OMG hi you! I guess atm I feel better than ever. or maybe not cause i do think. low key have laryngitis but oh well. ofc i just finished reading my last letter and i dunno i didn’t feel much satisfaction with reading it. i guess i can give myself some slack with how my life was going at the time but sheeesh. this was a slow whirlwind but i’m here now and we cheer. for like seven months i stayed with gena and omg never again. I think with everything so much and so little. I TWEETED THIS THE OTHER DAY but honestly trying to just remember that more than one thing can be true at once. i miss my roommate but life moves on and it’s SO FAST. speaking of so fast BILLIE EILISH released a new album!!!!!!!! LIKE WE ARE SO UP!!!!!! i did not see her on tour again unfortunately but it adds character if we’re being real. now just laying here i feel like i’ve genuinely lost the plot of why i even do/did these letters in the first place. i think in january i watched saltburn, that was a movie. people came around for a bit to long and jeez do i have to say. that was in february i think. in march i found out that my dad died..but that’s not even the kicker…he died in december. crazy thing to push through but **** it we ball.. in between that time my phone crashed like seriously. got a new one that is green. i worked for a week in may and omg working with kids is so… cool. It was incredibly hard to find a job this year i hate it like no other. hmhas came out and LUNCH was 10/10 in my books. oh side note i am in some SERIOUS DEBT it hurts so bad. i made a private account but i’m not really up for it now. i’m not really up for social media right now like i want to fall of the face of the earth. this summer pedalheads really played with me and my money. but i also got to meet one of the prettiest girls ever. i might go back or do something different this summer now that it’s up in the air. i moved back in with aunt asanti and i had to share kks space. i went to new york this summer too. i miss it so much but i think atp maybe it really isn’t for me. i found so much new music yes. omg i said that i was a lesbian. online at least. but i also don’t know how true that is. i’m the only one who sees this so juan got shot and it made quite nuance in my world. like aunt asanti does not know how deep things run. sometimes i wish she did like maybe that was his sickest karma. people fall out but there’s always SOME reason. this note isn’t hitting like it should. i got a job at a amc. i need more money though. i’m not it i finally get a new foot brace and i got my braces off. this letter is so ***. i’ll change more of it later maybe. i miss school.