A letter from Jan 02, 2025

Dear Future Me, Hi. How are you doing? Like, really doing? I hope you’re smiling right now because, honestly, I could use a reason to smile while writing this. Life’s been a lot lately. I feel stuck, hopeful, scared, and determined all at once. I just need to know—did it get better? Let’s talk about the obvious stuff. Right now, my finances are... well, let’s just say they’re not “financial-ing” the way they should. I’m trying to pay off my debts and not think too hard about how close I might be to being broke (or homeless—imagine that). Did I make it through? Am I okay now? Please tell me I’m not worrying about money every second of the day. Oh, and did I finally make that million? What about friends? Did I meet Ashkerien, Adeife, and others I always hoped to? Did I finally open up and talk to new people? Do I have those deep, real friendships I’ve always craved? Or am I still figuring that part out? And let’s not even get started on health. Have you started going to the gym yet? Did your glutes grow (don’t lie, I’ll know)? Did you finally add weight in a healthy way? I just want to feel good in my skin, you know? Now onto the dream. Are you a paid content creator yet? Did you find the perfect place to create? I hope you’ve built something amazing—something that makes you proud every day. Speaking of pride, how’s school? Did I finally pull off that academic comeback I’ve been daydreaming about? Did I get all A’s in my exams and prove to myself that I could do it? I’ve been struggling, but I’ve also been holding on to this tiny flicker of hope that maybe, just maybe, it’s not too late to turn things around. Oh, and my birthday—did I cry again? Did I feel sad like I’ve done before, or was this the year I finally felt genuinely happy? Did I celebrate in a way that actually made me smile? How are Mom and Dad? Are they okay now? Are they financially stable? I just want them to be happy and proud, you know? Did I finally do something that made life easier for them? Spiritually, how’s my heart? Did I grow closer to God? Did I finally find that peace and connection I’ve been yearning for? I hope my faith feels like a safe place now. One last thing—do people understand me now? Am I still fighting to explain myself to everyone, or did I finally find people who just get me? I’m tired of feeling like no one truly sees me for who I am. Wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, I just want you to know this: I’m proud of you. Even if you haven’t figured it all out yet, you’re still here, and that’s enough. I believe in you—even when it’s hard to believe in myself right now. Take care of us. Please. With all the love and hope I can muster,