A letter from Jan 02, 2025

Dear FutureMe, How you changed your fate, I still cannot believe it. It feels surreal. That young, girl who grew up on a mountain in a remote part of the world. The girl who no one ever thought anything of, yet look at what you have become today. I received the letter I wrote last year for my birthday. You mention how scared you were because of the court case, because you had no money, how you didn't know whether you'd survive. You wrote that, more than anytime in your life, you were most curious to see where I would be in a years time. Well here is the reality: You are now a multi-millionaire. At 27, you achieved something you never knew you were capable of. You recently turned 28, and you're sitting in a £9 million penthouse, with a fire going, and an amazing panoramic view of London, from where you saw the fireworks from the London eye 2 days ago - yes I was meant to write this on your birthday last month, but I was in that stunning Four Seasons Presidential suite that I had enough money to afford. Btw, have you been in a more beautiful room since? Do you have the same chef? Did you go on a private jet again and were you even more underwhelmed than when you first travelled on one this month? Is your driver still your driver? Is your massage therapist still your massage therapist? Or did they stop working or you found someone else? I wonder where you'll be when you read this. Have you decided to marry that guy? He spoils you like crazy, you get on very well safe for a few issues you're skeptical about, but the real question, that concerns me, is are you happy? Do you feel you've used the year to meditate, and focus on your passion? If not, where can we improve? I'm alone right now in the penthouse, and I am content, but there's a part of me that's worried that I'm not going to achieve anything. That I'll fall under the unproductive bandwagon even though I know there is 99% of the fuel in the tank still left in me. We got our first article published after trying for 6+ months. That innocent man who has been behind bars for over a decade in your home country for disagreeing with the religious extremists, is he still alive? I hope he is. Has the court progressed with his case? Have you met him yet? His hearing will be later this month. We've been waiting for years for him just to get a hearing. Whenever you feel worried or don't feel lazy, remember him and his strength. He is part of you. There is so much I want you to do because I know you are capable. All the women empowerment, that you deserve to do because you know EXACTLY what it took to fight to get an education, to be a single female from your background living alone in London. The scrutiny, the rumours, the want for others to control you and make you an 'obedient' woman, the names you were called by fellow females. Btw, do you find it any easier to trust women now? Right now I feel extremely skeptical. One of the women you know, worships material things, and finds my jewellery, bags etc so 'impressive.' Not the work I'm doing to help people, but material things. I hate it. In the private members club, I see the women eyeing my watch and jewellery. It's a turn off. I miss J. It's funny isn't it? She would have no idea what a Hermes bag is let alone any of the high-end jewellery or watches you have. You know she likes you just for who you are. I miss school life with her, the coffee, the chats, the badminton. Have you met her yet? It's been nearly 8 years since we met in person. I hope you've met her. I hope she stays safe. I hope she visits London. It would be great to put her in this penthouse. Do you trust men? Are you still in awe over the power you can have over them, and how easily they stray? Not all, but it seems to be a big number so far. You're very strategic with them. Are you still like that? One episode I get a lot of strength from is when we had no money and we told that rich guy to go to shove it. We didn't care at all that we were struggling or that this guy could be a good contact. We said to yourselves, I don't care, I'm going to make it on my own, I'm not scared. Do you still get strength from that episode? Because you should. It was a powerful one. Btw do you still buy copious amounts of beautiful lingerie? Are you still doing photoshoots and have you made a coffee table book full of your pictures? If not, this is a sign to do it!!! Just thinking about it, is making me excited. It would be a beautiful thing to look back on when you're older. I know you don't like to tell people about your journey and past because they've used it against you and so the rest think you just fell into riches because you come from a well-to-do-family. Are you still like that? Or have you softened a bit? I personally think, you shouldn't broadcast it. You know what rumours people come up with for a female. Also, you need to start believing in yourself. Even after decades of suffering, hardship, you still don't believe in yourself. As part of the new year resolution, I want you to continue doing the inner work and remember who you are. You are the girl who was alone, bullied, beaten, suicidal, scared, never loved, never protected by your father who threw you to the wolves; and there is nothing to be ashamed of about that girl. She is the one who got you through everything. She is the one who never gave up. She is a part of you and I am proud of her and I hope you are too when you read this, if not more. I hope you've used the strength of her, to believe in yourself and help the many women and men in your country, escape the bondages of injustice. You are not that alone, scared, hopeless little girl anymore. You are so much more and you have always been so much more then what others lead you to believe. Keep Shining :)