A letter from January 2nd, 2025

Dear FutureMe, k banyo yrr mero life yesto.. I never expected this type of life after see. it's January 2 tomorrow is my game 2nd bagmati Leauge. while playing this game its against me and the world you know what world means my taekwondo patners family and friends i don't talk to my friends much as I used to because I've got no time im always busy always doing something .. I read in two collages one at the morning from 6 to 10:30 and another from 11:30 to 5 the distance between my collages are about 45 minutes of bus ride and while returning home it takes about 1hrs there's always rush in public transportation and after that i directly go to my training session (taekwondo) I'm an national athlete i reach to my training at about 6:20 pm and i start to do my training for 7:30 and I do extra training training which takes t me to the 8:00 of night. I take 15 minutes foot walk to return home and at homework everybody will be waiting for me to come after eating dinner i wash dishes at that time there will already be around 10 I sometimes do revision and sometimes because of tiredness i sleep without talking to my friends which bothers me too because they are my comfort zone but they doesn't seems like understanding my situation or they are I don't know 
at the starting of this letter i said its the tournament of me against the world i was trying to say that tomorrow is my game usually my family supports me but this time its little different tommory there's my exam of botany so my family are not letting me plau this game but i was on the first rank so i filled up my gorm and submitted it my father was super angry with me that i was talking about games even during exam weeks which is correct he didn't even tried understanding my feelings 😔 my teammates they are not supporting me noone is coming to see my game not even my coach she denied to come and k didn't forced either and now I'm alone I filled my form without a coach with noone by my side I don't know whether I'll play tomorrow's game or not my exams are my first priority if my trun came before or after my exam time I'll play if it came late then I'll not play❤️ god please let me win this time I've struggled so hard for this game and future self please take care of yourself unless me treating myself like a **** treating my body like an ******** iloveyou I don know when are you receiving it whenever you'll receive it please say hi from your younger self to Kritika and sabrina iloveyou guys so much ❤️

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