A letter from Dec 31, 2024

Dear FutureMe, 2024 was a year full of lessons that's for sure, full of hardships and missed up opportunities. The people that once were the reason of my laughs, the ones to confess and open up to are no longer a part of my life. 2024 was a lonely year for sure, and it was only through my best moments that i felt it because I didn't find who to share my happiness with, I was forced to just move on as if it was causalities when it meant a lot to me, I wanted to celebrate it... I got convinced that nothing comes off easy at all and what I despise the most is that everyone ignores my efforts my hardwork that I pull up just to execute the simplest task when I could've just gave up. But despite the low, it's a year that I had discovered myself, I learnt how to respect myself, how to give myself more time, to say no and refuse to be a people pleaser, to do litteraly anything when I wish to which allowed me to go out of my comfort zone and stand for myself. Despite not having the health energy and body yet again but it never felt so good to be in my skin, I wasn't overthinking all the day, feel remorsed and guilty just by being present or being rewarded with something that I thought i didn't deserve. I've learnt to accept myself I've learnt to enjoy being alone I've graduated And I've learnt to accept being treated decently, complimented without cringing and feeling the need to compliment back or give back what I've been given. At the moment, I am in no place or time I wish to live at so I'm still struggling and I'll still be struggling for the first months yet all what I'll be wishing for 2025 is to be stable, physically mentally because I like no blueberries in my icecream cake.