A letter from Dec 31, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi, It's the end of 2024. I am on the cusp of failure with regards to business. I am supposed to remove my machines from my office. I need a miracle to come through for me. 2024 has been tough. I got a loan from my parents and started a business. I feel like if it fails I have no other thing. I feel like I can't, I can't fail. Dear God. This is tough. I don't know what to do. And still, I am hopeful. Hopeful that all the hard work I put in, all the marketing, skills learnt, all the effort, showing up daily, can't have been for nothing. Somehow, I still have hope, even when Niko kwa corner. Something will happen. Please tell me something happens. Some miracle. Some client. Some money just needs to come through. Imagine, my only problem right now is finances. I need money to pay school fees, to pay rent, to buy food and basics, and no matter how hard I try, sipati bana. But still, I feel like something does come through. I pray that the work I put in in 2024 was not for nothing, because that would be so bleak. If it wasn't for my kids, I'd have nothing left to live for. But I hope it all hasn't been for nothing. That's all I hope. When you read this, please tell me it gets better. I pray for a huge financial breakthrough. I pray for patience and perseverance, but dear God, I need something to work out! All these prayers, all this hard work. Surely, the universe can't be this cruel. I hope something good happens this year. Because I know the alternative.... Apana. Anyway. Hivyo ndio nafeel.