A letter from Dec 31, 2024

Dear Raiza, It's currently 9:05 pm on December 31st, 2024. there's barely 3 hours left for midnight, and a new year to begin. i hope by the time we read this letter, we have achieved, or still achieving all the promises we have made to ourselves. even if we haven't, its okay as long as we don't give up. at the end of the day, I wish we have finally learnt to love ourselves without conditions and have made peace with ourselves. so to start with life currently, we just turned 20. its been more than a week since we returned from Bombay, where we met some cool people and had fun discovering ourself and travelling solo through the city. we also have been talking to a guy for around a week, and he has asked you out for a date! your first date ever! its in two days, so lets see how that goes. do you end up liking him? or is it absolutely horrible? only time will tell. do you still have a deep dark void inside your heart that tells you that you're unloveable and will never find love? do you still want to be skinny? 2024 for me.. was a year to learn something. we had bad 'friends', got passively bullied, had a horrible situationship that wasn't even a situationship and let short ugly men treat us like ****, and failed our exam. although this year wasn't that great in so many ways, it was also something to look back at, kinda like a success story for the future you know? Hoping that we have achieved all our goals, making money, and are the baddest baddie ever known to mankind love you forever, me, myself, and I, Raiza~