A letter from Dec 31, 2024

Dear Future Me, ****, what a year huh? First of all, I wanna tell you how proud i am of you. 17 year old Amina would have never thought that you would be here today. Let's count our blessings, shall we: You ran this year, you actually had good health and you was able to stand up, walk and run, even for a small distance but you had the courage, will, and faith to do so. And gurl, I am extremely proud. This year you wanted to be healthier, you started to have a way better relationship with food, you had your ups and downs with it, but overall, you finished the year with a much stable mindset when it comes to your body. Amina, you are actually now wearing something that made you look at the mirror and say ****. Who would ever thought that you would wear a short dress and wouldn't feel insecure about how it made you feel. You are **** and you know it. You also lost 15kg in 6months and that we would celebrate, because your doctor said that it would be extremely difficult for you to lose any without the pill. You resisted, persisted, and reached part of your goal. You also had *** this year with a guy (we are not gonna talk about it), kissed another, had a crush on a girl, and went on many dates. And somehow we should start changing the narrative of our love life. Girl I know you are horny but what the actual **** are you doing? I mean this year i think i should figure out what I actually want when it comes to my ***/love life. you also started talking to your dad this year after 7 years of grief, pain, and holding anger inside of you little heart. Anyway. You used to pray to be on a plane, and this year you did. you actually travelled before turning 25. You had some good time watching the clouds and the plane take off. BUT WHAT IS MOST EXCITING THIS YEAR. YOU ARE GOING TO ITALY AMINA. Aman can you believe it? It is one of your dreams and you are going to do it. You are going to do research in Italy, you are going to live la dolce de fare niente, la bella vita. NOW, let's go to the most interesting part in 2025: You are gonna have a more better relationship with yourself, you are going to fall in love with the process, not just yearning for the body you want to have, but to love the one that is carrying you everyday. You are going to lose weight, but we don't care how much, the number on the scale is not the determinant of your happiness, just eat better to feel better, just take supplements to feel more energetic, just move more to feel like you can breathe deeper. In the 6montsh you are going to spend in Italy, somehow you are going to find yourself. You are at least going to visit 3 European countries ( lets hope they are Italy, France, Hungary) any supplementary countries would be perfect. You are also gonna have your driver's license. girl, it's really time to start driving. But what is most important is since in 2024 you didn't go to any musical concert, let's make 2025 the year of music and loud fun. A tattoo is also good supplement to remember the time of your life in Europe. Overall, Thank you for staying alive, thank you for fighting, thank you for resisting, thank you for never giving up, for believing in yourself, for cheering yourself up, for being a good person and getting your good karma, for staying true to yourself, for trying to always be a better version of yourself. GIRL I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.