A letter from Dec 28, 2024

dear honey, ⸂⸂⸜(രᴗര๑)⸝⸃⸃ 🧡 look im trying to be all cutesie here! actually 🤓☝️ i don't even know if my punctuation and grammar is right for God's sake but here i am. honestly, di ko alam bakit ko to sinusulat... it just feels so heavy lang siguro rn. i'll be honest, i feel so afraid right now i don't know what's coming on my way and that unknown makes me so worried 😓. it's december 28 2024, malapit na new year no? should i be happy or sad? what should i do? this year has been a rollercoaster ride i mean di naman na bago diba? from the past years it's been the same, so i kept thinking about all the what ifs and everything. pano kung di nangyari ung about sa buto ko? maybe life will be a lil better, im so mad, frustrated, every negative emotion you can feel. everyday i kept asking, what did i do to deserve that? did i really deserve that? but im just a child tho 😕 but anw whatever happens, happens. it's so hard rn, i was forced (kind of) by my teacher to compete in editorial writing category. i know i look like im doubting myself but yes im not someone who is a really really good writer that they think i was im just average but people think im so so galing 😭. ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌ wait nawawalan me ng thoughts bigla, fast forward 😀 i just want to kamusta you honey hihi 👉👈 what's popping? kimi. did you overcome all the challenges ba? 🥺 are you still with ronan? (of course you are) is your favorite color still yellow? you've been through a lot so i know im proud of you! mag c college ka na 😭😭😭 girllll i know na kaya mo yan!!! you have no social skills but still!!! goodluckie sa school mo ah, don't forget to take a break when you get tired but never give up on life 🫶 fighting bebe (⁠☆⁠▽⁠☆⁠) always remember na there's someone out here in the past the proud sayo ‼️ it's me hihi ung mga boses sa utak mo bleh 🤭 although i can't seem to love myself right now, gain that confidence owki. i know deep deep deep in my heart and my unconscious mind that i love you 🥹 go honey!